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detonate
released july 2001 the bomb coml throttle not by name consumed tooth in hand quality control black + white + blue click album cover to purchase through Hapi Skratch Records |
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get out
released march 1999 number one powder holding still zero to infinity inside of me sunday overflow stutter dry complacency after over & over ecdysis |
demo released August 1997
must've woken up from a dream . insanity bleeding inside of me . the open wound of my life festering before my eyes . must've woken up from a dream . emptiness in tragedy encompassing fate . all the time i've wasted on useless hate . a paradigm in reality . confining all i believe . must've woken up from a dream
sharing space in this place of desperation . each has no privacy . i feel the hate breathed to me . scraping my plate and my fate is separation . i failed my family . i hate this person that's turned into me . and i can see the stars . now that i'm blistered i can hear your voice through the dark . and i can see the stars . now that i'm listening i know who i am . crowded mind i know in time i will be there . i've found humility . i've felt the pain i bring . clutching grace in this place . i swear . i'll lead my family . i'll be the one i'm supposed to be
suicide and love hold hands as i lie awake in the darkness . i feel them closing in and i'm helpless against this onslaught . will they welcome me . do i have to fall to be free . and why can't i find my way . could i be this lost . why am i so afraid . please come rescue me . i feel so alone . i can't take it no more . how long do i hold on . can i scream enough to resist this . my hands are trembling still . do i struggle release or smile . have they conquered me . how do i save my sanity . how do i conquer the unconquerable . how do i fight and win . do i drift in confusion forever . or is this the beginning of the end
